People think that the Torah is closer to pure souls in the heavens. That's not true.
The sun's blazing light must penetrate deep into the atmosphere before kissing the earth with its life-giving warmth. A waterfall surges from the heights to unleash its immense power at the base.
Similarly, the Torah's great power lies in its ability to heal and repair. It seeks out the darkest caverns, for there it can reveal its greatest strength.
Rabbi, this is my seventh year studying Torah, and each year I delve a little deeper, but I realize that depending on where I study, it can sometimes get so complicated that getting out of it is almost impossible. My goal is to follow Chabad, but along the way, I encounter contemporary commentators—especially from Latin America—who make things incredibly difficult for me. My problem is that I hardly ever go out. I had very advanced colon cancer, and thanks to the Eternal One, blessed be He, I pulled through, but with limitations—which is why I can't attend synagogue, hence my lack of a teacher. I hope my question isn't out of place. Thank you, Shavua Tov.
B"H
Dear Ricardo, let me see if I understand the question:
1) Baruch Hashem, you are in good health, after having gone through a very difficult situation.
2) You cannot travel to attend classes, talks, services, etc.
3) You want to study Torah
4) You want to follow the path of service to Hashem as Chabad thought teaches.
5) You are confused by other rabbis who teach Torah, but it is not the Chabad way
Question: What do I do?
If I understand correctly what you're asking, the answer is very simple: there are many texts, audios and videos from Chabad rabbis (in English and in Spanish or other languages) to study.
Now, an important point to consider: there are matters of Torah that are independent of one's approach (Hasidic, Sephardic, Ashkenazi Litvish, etc.). For example, if one studies the Five Books of Moses with Rashi's commentary, one can do so with any Orthodox rabbi. It is true that there are many explanations by the Rebbe on Rashi that offer a very profound and novel perspective on Rashi's study of the Torah, but even so, if the rabbi teaching is Orthodox, one can still say that one is studying the Torah with Rashi.
On the other hand, if one seeks the Jewish perspective on a particular issue, it is very likely that the Hasidic approach will differ from the non-Hasidic one. In such cases, it is important to find a rabbi who views Judaism through the lens of Hasidism, Chabad, and so on.
I hope I've been able to help clarify your question...
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